it's not a walk in the park..

my view of pregnancy before i was pregnant was that you get a nice little bump, see a midwife, have scans and have a cute little baby at the end of it all!

however, it's not like that at all.

i'm constantly tired, hungry, breathless, snappy and then happy one minute, emotional, hormonal, angry with the world and just darn restless!

it's an incredible journey it really is but it doesn't half take its toll on you! i always think that i'm overreacting and sometimes i just keep my mouth shut so people don't get fed up with me haha! how hard can it be eh?!

two weeks ago i ended up in hospital because i lost a lot of fluid, had pains all in my right side and i hadn't felt baby move since the day before. i rang my midwife and explained what happened and she advised me to go straight into triage so i could be checked over. if i wasn't nervous enough the nurses first words were 'we need to make sure it wasn't your waters!' PETRIFIED didn't even come close to how i was feeling. the triage nurse was lovely and made me feel really comfortable - herself and a student nurse brought in all the equipment they needed to examine and monitor me and baby. they used the doppler and picked up the heartbeat - relieved mummy and daddy! i had to lay flat on my back for 30 minutes and wait for the doctor to come and examine me, i wasn't impressed when it was the HORRIBLE doctor who did our emergency scan and who questioned if i was actually pregnant! you can probably imagine the look on my face but i didn't mind as long as she did her job properly. to my embarrassment i needed to have an internal examination -  not very nice at all but it had to be done. after a few hours in the hospital we were given the all clear and told that my waters had not gone i had just leaked a lot of fluid. i was told to 'take it easy and rest' not that i know what that means but i suppose i should probably stop running around to avoid having another scare.

also last monday i began physiotherapy as my leg has given way twice when getting up after sitting or lying down! i was told that how my hip is at the moment, it wouldn't withstand a natural birth and would break during child birth! if i didn't do exercises and keep an eye on how i'm sitting it would only get worse. i've been given exercises to do throughout the day and i have to sit on the sofa with my legs out straight and elevated! i'm also not allowed to scrunch my legs up when i sit or sleep as baby is crushing my uteral ligaments and my diaphragm so i'm not getting the oxygen i need! needless to say i'm a very tired and restless mummy to be. 

lets hope October brings me good health! - wealth wouldn't go a miss either.