my own bubble..

i must admit i haven't been very nice recently. possibly a mixture of hormones and being overtired - i just can't be bothered with the world.

i think recent events have made me really look at the bigger picture. do i really need that? do i deserve that? does my child deserve that? do i need you? as morbid as it sounds i'd rather be alone than surround myself with fake people.

speaking to my midwife about it she said it is a sign of nesting. 'you will only associate with people you'd like in your child's life' it's a protective thing and lots of animals do it too apparently! 

it's sad to see people crop up out of nowhere just to be nosey. there is nothing more i hate than socialites who thrive on knowing other peoples business, it's like some sort of fetish and they get off on it. being around people who slag others off left right and centre but are then nice to their face. just makes me think what do you say about me?! 

safe to say there are minimal people i actually trust but i am blessed with the ones who have always been there for the right reasons. with so much going on i have just put myself in my own little bubble to deal with it in my own way. i hope that doesn't make me a bad person but i don't need to be worrying if i've upset someone or not!